As contributed by Geetha Subharam
My Recent Experience
>
I would like to share one of my recent exprience
> Bhagavan has been teaching me the sutra of
> "Seeing". Every time i get
> hurt/anger/jealousy/judgment He tells me to see........ see
> that you are hurt/angry/jealousy. Everytime i see i feel
> more free from within. Sometimes when i start
> seeing.........it will tell me stories, sometimes the anger
> just dissolves. I could feel that "SEEING IS FREEING
> ME'. Sometimes i see the stories goes on for a day or
> two. Most of the time the awarness takes over and it melts
> away. After doing this for a few days bhagvan tells me that
> after seeing accept it without judging who is right or who
> is wrong. So everytime i get hurt/anger or irritation i
> started to see and then accept. I felt this is still
> powerful. The moment i see and accept i felt more and more
> free. Exprienced lots of peace from within. As bhagvan made
> me do all the time and with his divine grace seeing and
> accepting became a happening. Accepting is nothing but no
> conflict state.I started to enjoy "seeing
> and
> accepting".
> I remember Bhagvan always tells us "WHEN
> EVERYTHING EXPRIENCED TURNS INTO JOY'. I didn't know
> how to exprience. But after seeing and accepting i prayed
> Bhagvan please make me exprience. Recently i was fortunate
> to attend one of Krishnaraj dasaji's tel conference
> about "Experiencing" and got more clarity. I
> started sit in one place and pray and see the
> feeling,thoughts going on,and the body sensations. When i
> started to experience the feeling i realised if i am
> irritated , same thoughts keep coming and i could see the
> irritation is changing into anger and then changing into
> hatred on that person. As i started to exprience i could see
> the anger just dissolves and feel peaceful. i often
> watch the thoughts and listen to the stories. Then i started
> to focus on the breathing. I could see the breathing rhythem
> changes.slow and fast and faster. Then i was watching the
> body, felt lots of energy in the head,throat and
> stomach. I was also able to observe more
> energy
> in some parts of the body. As i was watching the
> body, could feel the thoughts are slowing down and the
> breathing is also becoming slow. Whole body there was only
> energy flow and i started to search for Geetha and
> couldn't find anyone inisde. This gave me a big blow,
> when there is nobody inside and when i get angry or hurt how
> i connect it with the SELF(Geetha). I started to sit and
> watch this inner movie, the awarness increased and as i was
> expriencing i felt the energy is nothing but the PRESENCE.
> Another realization i got that
> BEING IN THE PRESENT MOMENT IS BEING IN THE PRESENCE. All
> my seeking to become Enlightened ceased. For me
> Enlightenment = Free from suffering.
> when i see,accept and experience i am free from suffering.
>
> Nothing has changed, everything is the same. I still get
> irritated,anger and even jealousy...............but the
> awarness takes over me. So
> AWARNESS
> IS THE PRESENCE. AWARNESS IS THE KEY TO HAPPINESS.
> Thanks Amma and Bhagvan for everything...........my heart
> is filled with gratitude.