Embracing Yourself!

Hi,

There are beautiful people on this planet. But they are not recognized. I am trying to give expression to one such person here.

Please read through this article; and I bet you will soon yearn to live life this way! The name of the author is unknown; but yet I do not want my readers to be unknown of his 'Experience/Truth'.

A man who took great pride in his lawns found himself with a large crop of Dandelions. He tried every method he knew to get rid of them. Still they plagued him.

Finally he wrote to the Department of Agriculture. He enumerated all the things he had tried and closed his letter with the question, “What shall I do now?”

In due course the reply came, “We suggest you learn to love them.”

I too was greatly proud of my goodness, nobility and God fearing nature, until I found a great shadow lurking within me. It was a series of accidents that led me to the doorsteps of Sri Kalki.

For the first time ever I came face to face with myself. I thought I did not have jealousy, frustration, discontent and fear. To my great surprise I found I had jealousy, fear, discontent and frustration. I thought I was beyond selfishness while Bhagavan showed me that behind every action of mine there was a self. Bhagavan showed me that the ‘Rama’ that I thought I was, never existed. I was a Ravana. My only son had heard me tell often, “Son, you have to study well and hold a good position in the society. I want you to be happy in life. I love you very much. I don’t want you to suffer.”

It was not fatherly love that made me say them, instead my own traumas and insecurity and the fear of ridicule from friends and relatives, acted behind the scene.

The whole experience of seeing myself happen when as a stranger I stood one among the thousands who were worshipping Bhagavan in one of the darshans. I felt Bhagavan’s eyes suddenly rest on me. As His compassionate eyes bored into mine, I saw His form seated in my heart. Bhagavan was looking at me from within me. The experience of self-discovery began that second. For forty-five minutes a great storm raged within me as I came up with several excuses with everyone of my behaviour. I didn’t want to accept my inner ugliness. Desperate tears poured down my eyes. The darshan was coming to a close.

Suddenly Bhagavan spoke from within, “Embracing yourself is the first and the last step.” The Lord fell silent. That minute the gates of paradise opened up in me. A joy beyond everything that I have ever known coursed through my body. As Bhagavan left I found myself dancing in ecstasy. I danced my jealousy, I danced my selfishness, I danced my anger, I danced my frustration. This joy stays with me till today.

In my office as I perform my duty I find jealousy, fear and anger racing through me and I dance them. People around me join me in my dance. I am four times as efficient as I was before and still I am left with a reservoir of energy when I go to bed.

My Anatha Koti Pada Pranams to Bhagavan.